A story.

 A
that year I was eighteen, is a sophomore student.
My grades were not very good, but it is an expert in fighting. So also recognized several iron man, they call me boss, my toe. respectful in their day to day, I really feel is a personal matter. And I was a wealthy boss, my mom died when I was little, my dad got married with another woman, to the United States, Although he did not want to talk to me, and I in the end was his son, he often send money back to me, let me spend money arbitrarily, that the conditions a few buddies are not very good at home, I asked them to eat well, they are more on the I am grateful. I am so legendary, the school in the school, all know my name, even the teachers did not dare touch me, I open one eye and close.
but our team leader Li Zhenyun exception.
In fact, the contradiction between he and I started not so intense, I first entered the class when it comes to a good impression on his winter ridge, he looked good-looking, gentle and polite talk from time to time will blush, but most of the time, He was silent, looking very shy one.
he did very well, although to speak much, but we all like him, so, High School started school, we elected class president, he became. < br> But I also finished his favor.
time I have been accustomed to man's toe, took it on board, but also used the fear of other people look at my eyes, I actually in retrospect, the main or ;, but the scenery was really very.
Li Zhenyun chose not to buy it. He is responsible for management discipline, and often go to the full-time troublemaker molecules and ideological work, mainly Burongyia parents say, the future depends on their grasp of the major principles, although he did not talk much, but which are convincing, some people really moved by his incredibly rapid progress after the results, then do not make trouble.
the photograph, but I just could not understand him earnestly like death.
in fact, can not tell what is mental, anyway, since his head when, I began to hate him. even seen used before, and now all become the reason for hate. For example, this guys love to clean, wear a white shirt in summer and occasionally play basketball like a Nihou others are dirty, he is clean. my desk in a mess of random books, be prohibitively difficult to find book and many times my eyes are speaking to the days of listening to the teacher. and his desk is always clean and neat, short, he gives the impression that this man is the pen, his clothes, very But the more I hate him, the more attention to him all day long. He scores good, his eccentric teacher, girls seem to like this gentle guy, passing notes to him every few days, and some pretend the problem head to get close to him, Well, Do not look the girls look very shy, they play what Guizhu Yi, simply can not escape my eyes. but he does not seem interested in, the United States have better or for worse Ye Hao, Ye Hao restrained enthusiasm also Well, he not pay any attention. bookworm Well, are like this. but everyone likes him, so I am very jealous, even though they are afraid of me, but not girls passing notes to me.
if only so, it also fills study hall that day happens, I ran over a man sitting next to me and jokes, which he saw, he came to tell us not to speak, I have the impression that he and I spoke very little, I counted, Total fifty-four. I did not expect this to open his Chrysostom, or to teach me. called me how to endure.
I looked at him coldly and deliberately slow and not be out of a cigarette, a small man rushed to my ignition.
I sprayed a mouthful of smoke at him, with a tone when a fight outside: here I shoots them a look, and some timid quickly retracted his head.
He jerked me out of the smoke, the sound is not high but true: ;
This time is really annoying me, especially the brothers in front of more than lose face, I threw a pound the table, ready to open play, really bad luck xxx, language teacher came in, bringing him gone, she did not pay attention to what was happening.
I have to retaliate.
wait until after school, he was a man back home, little piece of passers-by, some of my brothers stopped him, said to be looking to him about something , finished without any explanation, dragged him to a place does not come, meal beaten.
doing a great job, even the sides do not want me exposed, this is the boss of power. I'm excited to start to ask himself the most ruthless Xiao-Yong Wang, asking him to talk about the scene, he spoke enraptured, over added: He said that now no one can not see you beaten, if you dare to tell, keep dumping you an arm a leg. : the teacher asked him how he's going concern, he said he tripped. estimated that he dared not tell even my parents. coward.
I thought he was afraid, this is really a good opportunity to establish credibility, the entire class is know, even the monitor are afraid of me.
but I think wrong, I am again in trouble when he actually came, seems to be and I want to work against.
fact, really, he never rather than the person angry, tone of voice is always soft, but with a strange shyness, but I hate looking at. I ranged him speak, he said: ; finished out of the classroom. I did not tell him the war, which after all, he did not got me, I think the mix in rivers and lakes, rivers and lakes would say the rules, but these rules is really confusing. tell the truth, I was on the last beat him was a little scared. I want to leave room.
I told him not too apparent contradictions, but he is my enemy. I spend all day thinking about how severely the whole of his meal , just have not come up with a good way.
with several of our brothers, in addition to eating and drinking, that is, Kan Maopian. honest fight, not too many opportunities. We can only rely on film to see Xiehuo. I have a great family, and only I lived, happy to travel freely.
we have not really done it a few things, but this film has seen a lot of what the so-called specific language, ah, what skills are extremely familiar. sometimes that the film is too fire, Xiao-Yong Wang and even wait for them to go to the chicken, not only in the end, we feel that the fight is to show our strength, look for chicken that is really dirty, and only a few buddies not a good student teacher in the eye, and only mouth hard to describe himself was gangster-like, in fact, really want to murder, arson, absolutely not do this. so that the last time to see this film, is masturbation a pass solution.
day, Xiao-Yong Wang arcane came over, handed me a film that will see it. I asked him what are the contents, he said he did not know, is the recommended hard boss. I was skeptical: group of people would have faith? do not want you to buy his later films. stared, stammered a buddy: Two men thought it was not her daughter, then living together as friends, but when you hear people always talking about the tone of disdain, I also find it strange that this is not quite pure do you want, and I secretly thought , that if it wants to do, how to do it? to find woman or themselves?
I blink watching TV, something like this! then secretly watching them, is also a good eyed stares at it.
That afternoon, I'm one big long exposure.
strange to say, since I have a lot of interest in this film, always have to buy a few of them. began to accompany them was in high spirits I think, not long before they lost interest, and in front of my face and not ruin my only grumble that a man or a woman full of enthusiasm to see.
another day several of us together Look, I read with relish, they see to sleep. Xiao-Yong Wang looked at me, suddenly a low voice said: few others are also watching him, he waved again and again: said anything, and my heart like a drum, like, deep down I actually had the feeling that he had been some desire to say. Xiao-Yong Wang look at my silence, gently said: would stimulate me, and I looked at him severely, saying loudly: They also hear a few what we say, a little excited. Xiao-Yong Wang a laugh, , is a man, eat this loss, just beat him up about, how? , and my heart especially want to try what that smell is, and now the opportunity at hand, as long as I nodded. my heart even more severe, involuntary asked: on this Sunday! knock on the door, I was nervous, to open the door to look, Xiao-Yong Wang walked proud look, I go behind him and saw a few of them are strapped to a loss of Li Zhenyun. his clothes like normal so neat, hair a little bit messy and probably be a few of them out, but still very handsome, for the past, to see such a beautiful face, my only feeling is jealousy, it somehow did have a very strange feeling. I did not ask how they cheated him out, anyway, people who deal with this gentle, they are plenty of ways.
Xiao-Yong Wang patted his face: not fat, just a little disgust at him. Xiao-Yong Wang twice sneer: can not wait for you to the Western Paradise! not quick thank you boss! usually always a light way, so a little expression of fear is the first time I saw, the moment I feel very exciting. I wondered, can not lose face in front of the brothers, to come up today, vicious, to his my bad taste.
I deliberately leisurely walked over to him, touching his hair smooth, and then to untie his first grain buttons, his expression of fear, the talk about buying a little relieved, He probably thought I will just take off his coat and beat. I sneer at the bottom of my heart, and if so, it is too cheap to you.
I untied his shirt, slowly touch his belt, he want to rebel against, but only a few of them caught the wearer. I deliberately do it slowly, a sense of pleasure to me cakes, and suddenly understand why the cat caught the mouse, but also good to play a pass. I dragged out of his belt, he went solutions zipper on the trousers, a few of them hold on him, and have a great time.
I finally stripped of all his clothes up and down his body, it is estimated that got a little older boys, never in front of other people's faces like nothing to wear. Zhangde his face flushed, head are not looking up. I have a buddy throw his clothes, Xiao-Yong Wang has long been prepared out of the camera, facing the he was a quick photo of a pass, he looked at him frightened. He has not quite sure what we want.
the next thing was really frightened him, and I washed them a swing: Rights do not come back, I get a man to him. the Shudamuzhi. his idea, really quite extinct.
I suddenly hugged Li Zhenyun hand, he was just a few of them pulled, and now his hand free, he was desperate resistance. But this article frail weak how people will be my opponent, looked down on the two that I do not. Soon I will press him on the bed, along with their clothes off. contact with his skin the moment, my whole body have a shiver of pleasure.
I felt dizzy, the impulse has been completely surrounded me. I mimic the action film to his house and pinching Youmo, very nasty way, his skin smooth and white, and feel good hand .
He has a vague guess I want to do, mixed with anger shy, his face could not have been red, he wanted to kick me, but his resistance to me is just a kids game. my hand like pincers, he nonetheless I did not.
my breathing getting heavy, I want to vent to meet the substantive, and I no longer hesitated, suddenly look into his body, to be honest, even the moment I feel hurt, his body trembling hand grasped the bed sheets look fierce, as if trying to grasp it bad, I heard him groaning suppressed, which rather deepened my desire, I highly appreciate his body pleasure to simply disregard his feelings, to say I could not control myself, I understand what is the first to die happy, let them go, the only regret is that he does not like films that actor with the perfect yard, he from start to finish, all in desperate struggle, but this is also another kind of stimulus, and more added to my desire and the pleasure of conquest.
do not know how long I had no strength, I lay in bed, even if unable to speak, close your eyes and fell asleep.
a bit confused when I opened my eyes, Kanliao Yan wall clock, the original sleep more than an hour, the moment I am a bit confused, did not remember anything, but I I immediately think of it, I feel incredible, one turned around and saw him still lying next to me, before we know it is not a dream, his eyes are closed, but certainly not sleep, kept the tears from his eyes flow out, a large pillow wet.
I was wondering how he did not secretly gone, suddenly remembered that his clothes were taken away by them to his character, it will not wear my clothes go, and I think he hurt like that, mouth are all white, not go out.
suddenly I am terrified, I do not know how to do, I even think, after this afternoon I have had with him a qualitative change, is it, this is what I cursed himself ferocious, vowed to his calm demeanor. I first got dressed and then from the closet my father sent me, new clothes, like, I like his height, he should be able to wear.
I carried my clothes and sitting bedside, said coldly: warn you, if you say these things out of it, or someone that you crazy, do not believe you, or you, and your parents will be laughed at - do not forget those pictures. In short, the expense of always be you. I no longer speak, finally posturing a lot, I can not up hard, I was actually very true, but not entirely afraid of him sue me.
I reluctantly picked up his upper body, intended to help him to clothes on and see if he has white lips, body shivering, pain was not estimated. I suddenly feel a bit guilty.
touch my hand in his body, he scared flick, opened his eyes, but also disgust and fear of staring at me, but he did not push my hand strength.
I've got a nail, and I'm disappointed, to put clothes on him for a ride: refused to wear my clothes line, you do not go out with me every day here. stay a while and then slowly picked up the clothes.
I looked at him very strenuous clothes draped over his body, then slowly set into a hand, I've never seen people wear clothes so slow, a little bit funny, but also a bit sorry for him, I looked at him winded lengthy or buttoning a shirt midnight Shiver So now, not fastened, and finally could not help laughing, and I reached out to his deduction, and this time he did not refuse, just face Niuguo aside from me. It is indeed designed to be quirky buttons, I get conspire to him for several minutes, and we separated very close, his breath upon my face hot, his breathing was even more My hands trembled slightly, the buttons do not I hard some strange we go again.
finally dressed, he reluctantly supported stood up, I say you so, I opened the door to the basement to get a bike I had to send him back, until I came back, he was gone, I believe he did not go far, but I am too embarrassed to look for him everywhere. I sat in the living room couch, motionless, his mind blank. < br> Three
I took a few days off, trying to make themselves feel a fever, or aches and pains, in fact, plainly, I was afraid to see Li Zhenyun. I said Xiao-Yong Wang a few of them do not come to me, I really want to hide a vacuum world.
so I finally summon the courage to go to class, only to find when I entered the classroom, legs felt weak, I swore at her twice. Xiao-Yong Wang has not come yet, and late the.
I sit in his seat, looked for a moment pretend the book, and then secretly to look back the past - what, twice .-- he is really gone.'d see Xiao-Yong Wang came from the back door slip .
coming to class, I rushed Shigeyanse Xiao-Yong Wang, who came over, unable to bear exciting low voice said: I was taken aback: class next door, I heard that the school had wanted to transfer, but did not become. Liulao Tai gas to death, how to say this is a good Miao Miao her ah. Hey. was glad or disappointed, complex enough. Xiao-Yong Wang handed me an envelope, mystery, said: .
this day, I consciously or unconsciously look to the corridor, I do not know what they want to see all day passes Huanghuanghuhu, no matter what people told me I sounded vague accosting, like from the other a world coming.
I did not ignore them and play a few with my request, a person riding to drive home, I Juji too fast, I feel uncomfortable, do not know why the sick.
home, I ate something at random, one muffled in bed, after a while Youpaqilai, carefully took out the envelope, with my eyes closed to the inside of the photo is taken out, re-opened eyes, forced himself to look at, it is a beautiful body of a young boy, and that was brutal I had possession of the body. The first time the body is mine.
I do not dare to look at and put in the drawer years. But I found this house is full of his breath, I lay in bed, thinking I told him the fiery passion of those scenes, although only my personal passion, I still feel the heartbeat endless. my head buried in the pillow and trying to cool off the hot cheek, but remember that the above has his tears of humiliation. I'm upset, open the closet to get clothes to go take a bath, they immediately think of the day to help him dress, he left the right to hide flash look. I do not understand this is how I am.
sleep I feel more and more, from the beginning until Sunday night that is true. often sleep for an hour, wake up ten minutes sleep and then stumbled over to sleep so suddenly wake up suddenly get through a night, do not know what they thought, and sometimes cursed himself, caught in endless regret, and sometimes I kept thinking, there are undercurrents of sinister sweet.
has survived a night.
next day I went to class a little bit confused, just sit down and found a bag on the table, I have not opened, next to a classmate told me Early in the morning is to put on my desk Li Zhenyun. I heart rate, open the bag, which turned out to be that he was wearing the outfit to go, I rolled over, had found a piece of paper, with only a few words: not done, but the paper folded away, saw it's sitting.
Xiao-Yong Wang and getting in the way: puzzled. He coughed twice, halting, said: fun of it, maybe beat him, the consequences must be more serious, say, we fell on his hands that photo, not a afraid of him? No, he just taught him a meal. think of one thing:
Fangliao Xue, I secretly went to the backyard, while abusing himself engaging in their own with thieves are the same, while looking around. Fortunately, all in, I carefully picked up, and then go home with soap bubble , and then carefully washed by hand, in fact, my clothes are machine washable, but I think hand washing his clothes are hard to explain the joy of unknown channel. and I think also his clothes can go to see him.
So, I ascend from the high school, sophomore, this year is calm, but I always feel a void without the distraction, I had to go into the study in order to alleviate this suffering. I told them was good Xiao-Yong Wang friends, but not as often as triads fight with people, they look at me has changed, and gradually honest up. teachers and other students said that I changed dramatically, once the teacher made a special praise me wiser, but they never I do not know the real reason for change.
lonely days of night, I'll put his picture on the bedside, in the breath left his bed to experience the intoxicating pleasure, I do not mind the memorable scenes of the day, sometimes not dare to believe it was true. But the next day wake up, empty feeling that sense of loss is even more serious. but I disguise it well, did not go to him, nor with anyone spoken of, I want this exclusive secret.
I will find out very carefully to his very clever message, or quietly concerned about his every move, and then carefully finish. I'm all about the performance of his was deliberately do not care, because the actual on I care. In fact, if one day I met him, those details will be released movies in general as to reproduce over and over again. I even sometimes, but also imagine some scenarios, imagine where we touched the surface, and said what if I think about you even believe it was real.
his results have been very good, but the character has become withdrawn and cold, he was just within, and later to the malignant development in addition to what he was unwilling to book Dali, What do not care, and often people stared trance. I have learned that, really do not remember how much thought fees. I heard that news will be very excited, but then again remember the time very sad, I know that he had been turned out, largely because I told him the injury. I used to think, for I was him, was such a shame too, might as well to die.
Later, I test the city on a university is not bad, he delivered to the remote places on the best universities, we are very far distance between winter and summer vacations he did not come back. I try to want to forget him, the results found all in vain, deliberately forget that only show themselves in thought. I twenty years old, thinking it will not be many questions as naive as before, when I actually already know how the gay thing, I think the long time, want to own in the end is not, others do not see a little strange nature, I have had several girlfriends, even went to their very close, but I told them do not feel a thing together, even affectionate, and I only will be recalled over and over again with him on that Sunday, that unforgettable scenes. I also understand that, and I actually first saw him like him, otherwise I will not take him a few words to me that I remember clearly, not because he was kind enough to speak to me and sputtered, then reproduce those details one by one when the time I stood on the shore, only deeply understand what Like father. But until I understand injuries pain has been cast out.
Whenever I found a new girlfriend, I will be nice to her determination, but the final outcome is, without exception, is breaking up. I say that every girl with me not that sweet feeling, I am not romantic, crazy in love Chisha not cute at all. In fact, they do not know, I only really like the people in front will be abnormal, will Chisha madness. I often write to him letter, I never lyrical narrative only, estimated in addition to those who believe no one can understand the two of us, sometimes ask him to forgive, sometimes obliquely hints you like him, not salty at times to write some words is not short, but these letters never sent out a letter, I know these are not used to do, but do not do this to not to ease the pain inside, I put those letters in one place. I want to make it my own secret. < br> winter break sophomore year, we have that two classes of high school students gathering together to engage. The teacher called me, I feel so complicated that I know what is in the hope, fear of what I find out his clever home, but will not come to the party, I am very disappointed, they say you do not go out. teachers are really patient, and later tried several times to call me, I feel somewhat justified on the face, the results that day I went to .
karaoke in that big, I entered, several people to cheer up: is rumbling so loudly in my ears. I side with them talking and laughing while we watched one, I believe, in the moment I saw Li Zhenyun, not inferior to his shocked me. He had his face with a smile, smile, but that moment solidified, and his face became very pale. but I also do not know what became a kind of strange.
Fortunately, we are ecstatic that day, no one pay attention, I told how to meet a few students did a few pleasantries, and then unusual silence, steal a few times I looked at him, and he sat in one corner of a quiet, thoughtful. he was thinner than my image in some Some are more handsome. In fact, this face and all his facial expressions, do not know how many times was I think, and now live in front of me, I feel as much a false, feel how the poor imagination, I think about him all in reality if they are not that way. He just sat only a few meters away from where I am, but I feel so far away. obviously palpable, but it felt like the middle spans of a world. < br> Xiao-Yong Wang a pass they yelled all sorts of songs, we are all clamoring to get the microphone. they get to the end, probably only I did not sing with him, lest they start is not grab the microphone, now sing tired to start attention to us.
Xiao-Yong Wang proposed to our duet, I'm embarrassed. I know this guy's mind, a few years ago the conflict between the boys should have set a laugh, he would like to take this exciting to resolve conflicts before, but this awkward middle of what I am afraid that only Li Zhenyun. and I guess he embarrassed than me. I kept the regret that I did not just start to grab the microphone, so you will not be now become the object of collective concern.
they drag me went to drag him, I see frail man, he was forced Zuoshan You hide their jokes, his face'd always have a faint smile, his smile eyes are my obsession over the years At that moment I suddenly kind of desperate impulse, I even want to say, I love this person, in addition to him that I did not love others. but I just moved his lips East, I never was a people who never had the courage .
struggle day we failed, I finally stood on stage with him, and finally they agreed not singing, I first sang I will sing much, but sing or good, over and over their loud applause for a long time. I smile, that only I could understand why I sing this song, that which every line is I am a people's thoughts and ah.
turn to him, his face a little red, but still began to sing, as I've heard that song, but did not listen and now he sings it, it felt quite different I did not expect him to sing so well, I did not expect. he sang the first sentence, the following round of applause, I have been reveling in his song. The melody is so beautiful. I have always looked at him, did not pay attention screen, until he finished, we sat back to his seat, I quietly asked a student what it was, he looked at me surprised, then said, Danny's first meeting did not change anything, the party scattered I could not find him alone, he soon returned to school, I think we are this life's fate, and perhaps would have been just that Sunday, or, occasionally there are many people in time to stand together to sing, and nothing was.
my heart more and more empty, but no way to compensate. I was looking for a girlfriend, a junior class meeting, we sing and dance, show my turn, I sang the song no one noticed, there is only one girl looked at me in silence. She is the last of my college girlfriend.
then she cautiously said, in that class meeting, intuition told her that I sing that song because a passing feeling, she said, watching my expression at that time, a deep love that person, end of light, said the girl is really happy. I hear her imperceptible jealousy, but I have no words ...